Open Door to Change
A few weeks ago, I decided to do Purium's 10-day transformation detox/cleanse. First, let me give you an overview of the program before I share my reflections on the first day. The entire range of products are made from the purest ingredients: 100% vegan, 100% GMO-Free, Soy-free, Dairy-free, 100% free of artificial flavors and sweeteners, and 100% free of binders, fillers, and synthetics. For the detox/cleanse, there are five different products to consume; Master Aminos, Power Shake, Apothe-Cherry, Ionic Elements, and Dietary Fiber Blend. The program comes with a schedule that can be varied to fit your own lifestyle, but basically you are eating or drinking every two hours. There is also a Flex option where three times a day you eat from a Flex list, which is mostly made up of raw food choices such as apples and berries. The Power Shake, which is the main part of the program, is made up of all organic green vegetables with the exception of organic carrot powder. This means that the bulk of the diet on this cleanse is all organic green vegetables, packed with nutrients. Also, you should exercise about 45 minutes a day, but not more than this. In the guidelines, it suggests that during the 10 day program you should not have any extraneous stress. While on this cleanse, you should really be in a peaceful state-of-mind. Purium, David Sandoval's company that created this detox, also sends you motivational and inspiring text messages daily. Conference calls and email coaching are part of the support system as well. All in all, it has very structured guidelines with lots of help throughout the duration of the ten days.
For the past two years, I have been feeling like I need a major detox. I have done small detoxes with triphala, the Ayurvedic medicine. But this one is the first 10 day program with Power Shakes. I want to start by saying that I am not doing this detox to get thinner, and I am not one of those people obsessed with my physical appearance. When I first had Jaidon, my son, five years ago, I became totally aware of the pressure to lose the baby weight. I heard it and saw it all around me. I saw mothers, who were already thin, starve themselves to get even thinner. I saw obsessive dieting and exercise, and how the ego took over with self-loathing. According to Ayurveda, the forty-two days after birth is one of the most special and profound times of life for both the mother and the baby. Being overly focused on losing weight is distracting and unnatural. My message for new moms is to not worry about losing weight. In my experience, the weight will naturally come off as you keep up with an energetic toddler. There is no urgency to return to your pre-baby weight; and furthermore, your body is totally changed in giving birth. Take the time to get to know your new body with your new family. Along the same thought process, in the yoga community, there are many people who are obsessed with physical appearance. In 2001, I did a power yoga vinyasa teacher training with a well-known yoga instructor in Cancun, Mexico. I felt like I was in a five-day episode of Bay Watch; which as a new student of yoga was pretty intimidating. Also, the physical aspect of yoga was the main focus of the training, and many of my students know the story about my serious injuries during that time that were caused by the poor yoga instruction (and of course my own kharma). My lesson, which was further affirmed later in 2003 when I took the hatha yoga teacher training at 7 Centers Yoga Arts, was to live yoga as an integrated practice of observing the mind and using the prana to move the breath throughout the body. Yoga can't just be a physical practice; if so, it is not yoga at all in fact. Thus, my main intention in doing this cleanse is to detox the old me and transform into a new me. I want to clear out the old thoughts that keep me scared and doubtful at times, and transform into a new me with confidence. My beginning weight is 136 lbs. My chest is 35in, my waist is 29in, and my buttocks is at 40in. One comment about my bottom; my husband and I both like my bottom. My beginning picture are below.
First Day Reflections
I didn't expect to feel the changes immediately, but I did. I felt my mind stuff appear right in front of me with no mercy. My mind stuff is usually in the form of insecurity and self-doubt and lack of self-confidence. This has been my deep work for several years now. Around 4pm, I started to feel uneasy about my abilities. It was really very silly, but the voice inside my head doubted my mothering abilities, my inner strength, and my voice. I watched the thoughts come up for me like captions of a cartoon. All I could do is watch them, and I didn't act on them. Thank God for my husband, because later I was able to share it with him, and he helped by listening to me. By the end of the day, the negative thinking was released entirely. I was so surprised at the thought's intensity. Once I realized that it was a reaction to the cleanse, I felt very happy. I knew that I was on the right track.
I couldn't believe the increase in energy. With the Power Shakes, I felt lighter and moved with more flow. In the past, I have felt difficulty in bringing joy and lightness in every movement and change of life. My parents both were workaholics that moved without true purpose and in the muddiness of heavy burden. I don't blame them and I don't feel any resentment. I love my parents very much and have healthy, loving relationships with both of them. I just was left with a confusion about work and movement and transition. It is only now that I am practicing bliss in every moment (that is the goal anyway). Teaching and practicing yoga for the past 13 years have helped tremendously as well. The yoga has helped me re-define work, and create an entire new perspective all together. Also, it should be made clear the work is part of your environmental diet. We are actually eating up all of our experiences, and digesting them internally. Therefore, digestion and food is beyond what we place in our mouths; it is also our lifestyle and environment. We digest our lifestyle, and we digest our environment. No experience goes without digestion and absorption.
Overall, the first day was very nice. I look forward to the next 9 days. I will continue to blog and share my thoughts. Much love.